#AutisticPrideDay
I don’t celebrate. But I’m here. And that is enough.
🧠 A Conversation with the Brain on Autistic Pride Day
me
Brain, today is Autistic Pride Day.
brain
Uh-huh.
A moment of silence
me
Maybe we should write something? Something... positive?
brain
Do you seriously want to write a post in this state?
(a moment of silence)
Because I am
me
You know... we're supposed to feel proud.
brain
This isn't about lack of pride. It's about the fact that you're completely worn down.
me
Because I am.
brain
Because you're doing the work of the whole system. Therapists, assistants, school, the state. Every day you rebuild the world from scratch so it makes sense for the children. And then you're also supposed to celebrate?
(a longer silence)
Nothing. We sit. We are.
me
So what do we do?
brain
Nothing. We sit. We stare at the wall. And we are who we are.
me
Even when it hurts.
brain
Exactly when it hurts.
We don’t have to prove anything to anyone
me
We don't have to prove anything to anyone.
brain
Because our lives have value. Full stop.
me
Because we are. And that really is enough.
(silence and unfocused staring at the wall)
Seriously, today is very bad
me
Seriously, today is very bad.
brain
I know. But I'm here. The whole time.
me
Hard to miss. Monologues, race-condition thoughts...
brain
I know. I'm not exactly user-friendly.
me
But you're mine.
brain
And always on your side. Even when I go wild.
me
And the children.
brain
...
Ending
🌻 🧠 ♾️
This is not a post about celebration. It is a post about being. About the fact that even when everything hurts and nothing works, simply being autistic in a world that does not understand it already means something.